The most difficult time in your life may be the border to your promised land ~ Christine Caine
I know I’ve been quiet for a while and I know you’re probably all wondering what has happened to my Godfidence diaries. Well lets just say there’s been a beautiful testimony building up.
Some of you who follow me would know that my husband and I ended up losing everything and knocking on the doors of a homeless shelter after both being unemployed for about a year and a half. It was a situation that completely broke us, but God used it to have a wonderful story to tell that would bring glory to His name!
Being in the homeless shelter was probably one of the most broken moments in my life, I deactivated all of my social media accounts, I spoke to Noone excepting very close friends and family. I basically put myself in hiding for a good couple of months while going through this. I felt like such a huge failure, I felt embarrassed. I dreaded the question: “How are you”. I was stuck in between not wanting to have to lie with a fake smile on my face and not wanting people to know how bad it’s got.
During my time there, God sent me a few little angels in people within our lives, within the home, leadership within the home etc that helped me to seek within myself and listen to what God was really trying to say to me during this time. I learnt so much about myself, my values, about others, my expectations, my strengths, my weaknesses during this time.
After about a month of complete mixed emotions, most of which was anger, and spending my time sleeping wandering around or crying. I started really pressing into God and listening to what He had to say. I found myself spending hours and hours of time with Him, listening to sermons, reading His word, in prayer and worship. I went through feeling lonely and understanding why I was feeling lonely and then realizing God is always with me, I’m never alone. I went through feeling rejected by friends and family and left stranded to understanding my faith should be in God alone. I went through being confused by the spirits and evil around me to understanding how important it is to be careful what and who I let into my life. I literally can’t even list the extent of the lessons I learnt during this time.
Faith is not an easy thing to hold onto during a difficult time, but it’s OK to give it your best shot and let God know how you’re feeling. He is always listening even when He’s quiet.
The main message of this particular blog is just a testimony of how when you really press in to God during your trying times, he restores 7 fold what the enemy has tried to take away from you. All the time I felt alone, He was right there with me working in the background to bring us to our victory.
While we were in the homeless shelter the head gasket blew on the car and the car was left standing with no income to repair it. My husband then got a security job and with some help from a family member and my husbands first month’s salary we repaired the car so that I could start work for an online shopping company. Within 2 months we were able to move into a garden cottage, within the next month it was fully furnished. Within the following month we bought another vehicle and he joined me in working for the online shopping company and we are now in a position to give back. It felt like one minute we were in a hopeless situation and suddenly we opened our eyes and the breakthrough was bigger than we could of ever imagined.
Nothing is perfect though, the enemy is of course still trying to throw a few obstacles here and there but God says “No, it’s enough!”. I’m reminded of Job, we went through what Job went through and yet we came out better off spiritually, emotionally and almost financially stable on the other side. God is busy when we are waiting.
1 Peter 5:10
“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.”
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
I hope that this little testimony will bring some hope to someone who is feeling in a hopeless situation.
We serve a God who keeps His promises, we serve a God of restoration. Never give up, press in during trying times, God mostly uses these to catch our attention.
Stay blessed, lots of love